After Holding It In For A Week, I Have Returned To Purge!

[imood mood at time of entry: achy]

It has centainly been a while since I have written here. In the last week since I last wrote, I have been knocked down by a terrible case of strep throat, lost two friends, checked out of my high school only to be forced into my “home” school, and realized that not everyone hated me at my home school. It was amazing. I have also completely given in to my unabashed lust/love for an *clears throat* Elf! That’s right! You read correct people, I, Danielle, have fallen for an Elf. I will get to that in due time.

I don’t truly know where to start, so I will start with the simple stuff and work up to the more emotionally charged. It turns out that DearDiary has completely changed their system concerning the Notify List which sucks major member if you get my drift. I didn’t even know! I had wondered why I stopped receiving Notices from my journals/diaries. I had to resubscribe to all the journals/diaries again. The owner of DD made the list into the kind of list that I’ve depised the most and was most thankful that DD was not like it; it has become exclusive to only site members. Now correct me if I’m wrong, but that is the way this new system is working, is it not?

I was quite surprised to come to my journal today and discover that my entire Notify List had unsubscribed. I couldn’t quite believe it. A couple of them I had expected, but one I had not. That one was what sent me wondering as to what in the heebie was going on here.

I did tons of updates too. I updated my Cast List, my entry footer, my Welcome message, and heaven knows what else. I had to clear out all the junk that was just sitting there.

I deleted Prestina’s, Dame’on, Cris’, all my old teachers’, and friends’ from HDBIA names from the Cast List as they are no longer relative to me.

I don’t really feel like going into specifics concerning the friendship break ups, but I am sure that any long time reader can guess with whom they were with. That’s right, Prestina and Cris. I suppose that those relationships weren’t the healthiest that I have held onto. I truly tried to be friends with Cris, and ultimately, (and thankfully) he decided that he no longer wanted my friendship nor body (<--Yes! *pumps fists in the air*). He gave me this bullcrap about not being able to deal with my religion. Goddamn self-righteous Chrisitians! I go out of my way to be more than considerate of their faith and they get all prissy about mine. I can't believe the way they want to treat people simply because they aren't Chrisitian. Christianity is not just the religion to be a part of. I’m sorry, but it’s just not. Pfft. So that friendship is dead.

Prestina got all mad because of the stuff I wrote in here. If she didn’t want to read it, she didn’t have to, I never forced her to. She and the rest of the world has to remember that this is my personal journal and I am allowed to write pretty much whatever I want to here. This journal was never meant to be seen by anyone that I knew, so that is why I have never held back. I didn’t start holding back until people I knew began reading my journal on a regular basis. Oh! It turns out that Prestina’s boyfriend of 11 months, Dame’on had been reading my journal too. Even Prestina’s younger brother, Jalen had been reading my journal! It’s a mad, mad world when all these pepople that I know go about reading my journal. Strange. . .

Anyway, I am here waiting on my mom to come pick me from here to go home. My feet are killing me from all the standing I have been doing to use the computers. Yeesh! My bra straps are making an art of digging their way into my poor aching shoulders. Guh.

On the Elf love note, I have fallen head-over-heels for Haldir. He’s an amazing creature to watch on the screen. I am quite flamed that he was killed off in the second Lord of the Rings after a surprise appearance at Helms Deep. Just when my heart soared, he was chopped down by two Orcs! I couldn’t believe it! I cried out NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! and everything! *sad laugh* I have been considering writing a fan fic about him. I have been looking him up on the Internet so that I can get to know him and his world better. Hopefully, the effort will help me to write a reeeeally good story. It of course, is going to be porn or something along those lines. Can’t beat the basic nature of living beings. *lol*

Oh! I checked out of my sort of alternative accelerated high school to go to a regular school since the classes were cut back. I neeed more classes to graduate sooner. I tried to go to Waltrip and they were not accepting Transfer students. Darn! No one that I called was, so I ended up checking back into my home school. I hated that place. I hated feeling depressed and hated and empty inside. It got to be too much.

Oh! On the threesome/17th sex, it’s not going to happen. Me and the friend have mutally decided to not go through with the venture on the 17th or ever for that matter. This means that the threesome with that friend and Brandon Lusk isn’t going to happen either, but that is only half of the reason why the threesome with Brandon isn’t going to happen. I don’t want to have sex with Brandon anymore. Every since I got sick behind being outside with him, and him pushing me to give him a handjob in my mom’s car in front of my house, I have found him to be utterly yucky. I can’t stand a man who pushes me too far too fast. Men don’t seem to understand that if they allow me my own space and allow me to take things in that direction in my own time, they will get further faster with me. Pity, I have tons of energy built up too.

Now I’m off to read more Haldir slash porn. TTFN. . .

Lots of Love,

Danielle