The Weekly Sum Up

Well, this week has certainly been something else. I got dumped by my boyfriend, got back with said boyfriend, and then we mutally broke up while passionately making out in the park. I started school again after not going for a while, gained friends, made strides to catch up on my work and grown as a human being capable of loving someone else in the world. Sheesh!

I feel sort of tired. Maybe I slept too much this morning. I slept for a loooong time. I was sleeping good too! I had all these dreams. Some were about me and Prestina and I had this dream about Jade. We were riding in her car (just my picture of her car in my dream). It was this old Caddie or one of those older big gus-gussling cars. She had this old radio with the punch buttons to change the channel with the wires and stuff exposed. I was turning the station and hearing all my songs. We were smiling and everything. She was driving and I was in the passenger seat laying her shoulder. I was worried that I was being too selfish listening to all my songs. The dream with Prestina was so long that other dreams sort of spliced in like commercial breaks. The Jade one was one of those commercial types.

*sigh*

I sent Jade an IM from Prestina name to say that I was sorry a couple of days ago, but not surprisingly she didn’t reply back. I think she blocked Prestina’s name. I tried to tell her that I missed her and that we had been great friends once and that I was sorry. I never did apologize for the way things ended between us considering that we used to talk every single day durning the summer.

I am going to be going over Prestina’s aunt’s house today. I will be spending the night. It’s going to be an entire house full of children for me to look after and I’ve got homework to do. It’s mostly writing short stories. I feel so freaking sleepy!

*sigh*

I miss Cris so much!!! I truly do. I wish that he were mine again. I came close to calling him a few minutes ago to say hello. I wanted to hear the sound of his voice, but I didn’t know how he would react to my calling him. I did see him this week though. I was coming home Thursday (November 13, 2003) from the library and he was just pulling into his driveway. He walked over and talked to me for a few minutes. He even gave me a ride home. I wanted to run up to him like a puppy that misses its owner and hug him and kiss him full on when I saw him strutting. *sigh* Oh well.

I do happen to like someone else now. I met him yesterday (Friday, November 14, 2003) in my US History class. He was there making up his Spanish work. Apparently, my US History teacher also teaches Spanish and a couple other subjects. I sort of asked about him to a mutal friend of ours. He’s so cute and funny and intelligent. OoOoOoO!! *lol* Gosh, I’m silly sometimes.

Anyway, I am going to go surfing around for a little bit if I can think of somewhere to go.

Oh! Dame’on, Prestina’s boyfriend got a journal here too. I have inspired yet another person! *lol* Yea. . . So now they can go read each other journals and leave comments. Awww. . . Puh! Where the hell are my sweet gestures like that?!? Apaparently, there is no one for me. I should just learn to live alone forever. Guh.

Danielle