Even A Jerk In My Dreams

So, I am still here at Prestina’s, but I will be leaving in a little while. I just called Cris like he asked me to at 10:30 A.M., but strangely enough he didn’t pick up. Good figure! Bastard. I don’t know if I even want to deal with Cris anymore. Sure, I really like him, but he is simply too much for me to handle. He won’t allow me to do anything for him and asks everyone if they would allow him to just be good to them if he was their man in stead of “complaining” the way I do. I am not ungrateful, not by a mile, but he has got to learn that we are together and we have to be able to do things for one another. Not just him doing things for me.

Everything is supposed to be equal. He needs to learn to share the joy of being romantic for one’s partner. Hey, I have comprimised for him. I’m the type of girl who doesn’t want spit from any guy because I know that they will always want something in return and Danielle does not play that “I buy you lunch, you sleep with me” game.

Oh, I even had this dream about Cris. I was sleeping on the floor in the living room here at Prestina’s like I actually was in real life and the floor had this long uneven crack in the floor. Instead of Kayla sleeping next to me it was some guy that I wanted to be with, but I kept thinking “What about Cris?” Then Cris came from this weird blurry version of his house and he was blurry too. I couldn’t clearly see him, but I could hear his voice perfectly in my ear telling that he is so tempted, but won’t do anything about it. He just wants to “appreciate” women. I tell him that is all he better do. That was the end of the dream because I fully woke up to use the restroom. Yea, I am sure you needed to know that. While this part of the dream was going on I was sort of awake because Kayla had woken me up and wouldn’t leave me alone. I had my eyes open and was looking around and answering Kayla. The dream was still playing in my head and ears.

Also, last night on the phone he was acting all man-ish aka (that’s also known as) pig-ish. He was asking his friend if he wanted some of his pancake-on-a-stick. I said that I did and he started turning it into something dirty. Well, his friend that was with him told him not to talk to his girlfriend like that and I was like “yea!” His friend was so sweet. *lol* At least right then. God, I fucking hate Cris right now.

Well, this is the chat I was having with Lytewyng while I wrote this. The screenname is Prestina’s.

Danielle

MissTinaL2u: hey cutie! 😉

MissTinaL2u: it’s Danielle btw

princelytewyng: I assumed.

princelytewyng: 😀

MissTinaL2u: hehe

MissTinaL2u: how are you doing?

princelytewyng: Headache still, just a lil bit.

MissTinaL2u: oh i see me too

MissTinaL2u: it’s that “special time”

MissTinaL2u: hehe

princelytewyng: Ah.

MissTinaL2u: yea. . .

MissTinaL2u:

Introducing Karma, the Bitch

MissTinaL2u: hmmm

princelytewyng: Damned straight.

MissTinaL2u: hahaha i see

MissTinaL2u: yea Karma can be a utter bitch sometimes

MissTinaL2u: i have been hit by some shit that came back around to me

MissTinaL2u: *sucks teeth* hmmm

princelytewyng: It seems that’s all I’ve been hit with lately.

MissTinaL2u: yea i know the feeling

MissTinaL2u: it sucks BIG TIME

MissTinaL2u: Others, like SK and Ben, will probably laugh and say, “Yeah, I’m not that surprised.”

princelytewyng: Yes it does.

MissTinaL2u: me too

MissTinaL2u: i was a bad girl too and still occasionally still am

MissTinaL2u: just not to the degree i was before

princelytewyng: You’re not surprised either?

MissTinaL2u: nope!

MissTinaL2u: because i know my own

MissTinaL2u: i was the bad girl and got away with it

MissTinaL2u: and was loved by my peers for it

MissTinaL2u: *lol* i know that is bad and all but it was just my way of being free after being sheltered for so long

MissTinaL2u: i sort of like this comment that this person left

princelytewyng: What was the name?

MissTinaL2u: I don’t know Z something

princelytewyng: Zedral?

MissTinaL2u: yes

princelytewyng: Yeah, she’s a friend of mine. I read her comment.

MissTinaL2u: cool cool

MissTinaL2u: so else is new in your life?

princelytewyng: Nothing, really. Stressed. Not feeling that well. I’ll be ok.

MissTinaL2u: i hope so

princelytewyng: I think I’m gonna go back to bed for an hour or two.

MissTinaL2u: oh ok i see

MissTinaL2u: perhaps i will see you later on or monday

princelytewyng: Okay, maybe so. *hug* Be good ok?

princelytewyng: Bye now.

MissTinaL2u: nope!

MissTinaL2u: bye

MissTinaL2u: oh i am posting this btw

princelytewyng: Sure, I don’t mind

MissTinaL2u: cool now get some sleep *hug*

princelytewyng: Heh. Okay.

princelytewyng is away at 10:40 AM