God! What A Waste!
(2:57 A.M. – 3:25 A.M. US Central Time)
I saw myself in the mirror tonight.(Well earlier.) From the side. And all I can say is Ugh yuck! I hate my back fat. It is so digusting to me! I despise my stomach too. Guys say that they like that I am soft like a pillow like this is a compliment! Guys are stupid! I hate it even more when I have these moments when I realize how gross I look. Ugh! It does not help that I have been watching Charlie’s Angels part one on my computer a lot lately. You really learn that men don’t want women of different sizes and colors like they all so PCly say, they want women who look like Cameron Diaz. Blond hair, blue eyes, stick skinny body and white. Very white.
*grumbles, sighs*
I need to do something, but the gym is canceling our membership since we cannot pay the fess. Maybe I can go walking around or something. Get out of the house. Drink only water and give up on eating. Hey! It could work. I have done it before. Lost a lot of weight that way. The problem with this plan is that when you start eating again you gain weight. That would be counterproductive. Plus I had tons of exercise to help out. I would have to think of some way to be more active.
Oh! I would like to thank all the people who wrote to me soon after I posted the above entry (see July 21, 2003. It was a entry started three minutes before midnight). You guys cheered me right up! I was laughing and smiling and saying “Oh how sweet!” in no time! =D
Also about the comments, you do not have to be a DD.Net member to leave me a cooment. You just have to have a name (not necessarily a real one) and a working email address. I am mentioning this because Jade did not know she could leave me comments. So I am saying it now in case anyone else has been detered by the lack of account. Also, you should note that any crazy or rude comments will be deleted and you will be banned from making comments again. I just don’t want crazy comments in my journal.
So, I am a big waste of everything, especially skin and there is nothing that I can do about it. *grumble grumble*
Later.
~.~ Danielle ~.~