Replies, Roleplaying, Story-telling, and Late-Night Buys

[imood mood at time of entry: cheerful]

It has become odd coming to post here, because I am so out of practice. I practically live on LiveJournal now. That’s pretty ironic, considering that a year ago I hated the site and the people on it. I still hate most of the site and the people, but I go there for my friends and my wives, and the ease of connecting with other people. The comment system there is one of the best. Other sites use the same layout, too, but I really appreciate it on LJ more because that is where I use it. I only wish that you could post your comments as “Private” when you post them like on DearDiary. They have to stay Public until the journal/entry owner comes along and Screens them for you. Blah.

I am enjoying my roleplay, for the most part. I constantly spaz about how good I am or the time lapses in replies. My computer is slow, and I usually have to change what I am going to have my character say. It’s so frustrating and overwhelming, so I end up panicked and worried. I always wonder what the other person is thinking, while fretting about them turning me in to Bad RPers Suck. I usually end up twitching and vowing to give up roleplaying, because I have had myself utterly convinced that I suck beyond repair, and that I should leave the whole thing alone.

Once I read back over the logs, I end up being fine. I’m never as bad as I think I am. After I remove all of the OOC chatter that I had been worrying about, and add small sentence structure tweaks here and there, the logs turn out okay. I don’t sound like an idiot, and realize (once more!) that it was all in my head. It is amazing how I am able to make it through the day.

I have been awful at replying to my DD comments in the past month or two. I have so much going on that only a portion of my LJ comments and general email are getting answered, as well. I do read everything that people send me, even if I do not respond back. I have stretched myself all over the places, and I leave myself feeling panicked and overwhelmed. I don’t seem to be able to help myself, really. I find so many groups, websites, projects, etc. interesting, that I tend to go overboard. I am doing my best to take it one To Do at a time.

As for the font I used in the last entry, it is called Vrinda. It is an incredibly small font that is ridiculously spread out and takes up a lot of space. You have to make it quite large just to see it at a normal size, in comparison to many of the other fonts around.

It turns out that a lot of people are reading that story I wrote for HP Fandom‘s “Famous last Words” Challenge. I posted it on FanFiction.Net a few days ago, and it’s gotten over 220 hits in this short amount of time. At least that was the last number check yesterday. I editted the original challenge version, and showed it to my friend, Emma. She told me that she liked it, so I went with what she told me. I don’t know why people like it. I guess that I simply do not like my own relationship fiction. It always seems false to me, no matter how hard I work on it. I can’t manage my own relationships, so how in the hell am I suppose to successfully navigate a character’s? I write what I know, and I don’t know successfully relationships. That is sad to say, but it is the truth.

I went shopping with my Mom at three in the morning. We walked about Walgreens, and I bought about twenty-six dollars worth of stuff. Most of it was candy, and I had to throw some of it away because it was so nasty. Yuck. I did finally get the glitter lamp that I have always wanted. It was marked down from $9.99 to $4.99. I had to pick it up! It made my room appear as though it was underwater. Very calming, if not a bit bright. It is better than the big screen television being on all night. *smiles*

I hope that everyone is doing well. *love and hugs to all*

Danielle