Lauren Goes So Soulful

Once again I am waiting on yet another thing to catch up. I am trying to put my banner for my journal on one of my pages that Yahoo! provides, but their PageBuilder loads soooo slowly on dial up. It’s slow on the direct connections. Geesh! I am listening to Lauren Hill croon about love.

Yea, Cris’ usual name for his penis is Mini Me, but we called him “little Cris” Tuesday (November 3, 2003). He called mine “little Danielle” with promises to kiss and french kiss her. *lol* I of course call him Not So “Little” Cris.

I can finally enroll in school. All I need to do is get my transcript from my old high schools. I don’t know what the frock the schools need two copies of the same transcript for. If the old school sends the transcript, why do I have to go allll the way to the schools to get a print out of what they are going to send anyway? What is that all about?

After I left the library yesterday (Wednesday, November 5, 2003) I picked a rose for Cris. We (me and Brandon) got to our side of town later than I thought we would, but I put it on the rungs of his mailbox anyway. I don’t know if I should have done this. When I got home I called him and told him to check his mailbox outside his house.

I also sent him a short email telling him ‘hello’ and that I hope he feels better soon. Was this too much? I don’t think it is, but I know how Cris is about the whole me doing stuff for him thing. Usually, he would be basking in all sorts of lush treatment, but he doesn’t want it. I mean who doesn’t want their woman to pamper them the way I like to? All the home cooked dishes and trinkets he could have. All the attention I could give, he doesn’t want. Pfft. Am I missing something here? Or am I misreading the situation as I have in the past?

Prestina is lying on the couch with “woman trouble” and I cleaned the kitchen since I knew that she wouldn’t be doing it any time soon. She must be having some cramps. I cleaned the kitchen and dining room. I picked up most of the trash in the living room too. I don’t mind really. We sort of have this agreement, or at least I like to think we do. She lets me feed my internet addiction and I help her clean. I will have to take out the trash since it is overflowing and Jalen hasn’t done it yet.

Damn! This Yahoo! thing is taking forever!

*sigh*

My stomach is all upset and wooky. Ugh.

I am sort of avoiding Cris right now as he didn’t bother to call yesterday and I kind of sort of went overboard. I guess. The whole rose and email thing. I wonder if he appreciates me or just wants me for sex. Hmmm. . . I will just not call him for a couple of days.

Relationships are tough. I wish I brought my offline journal with me so I could type up this quote that I found in a book I read a while ago. I will have to do that.

Ok, that’s all I can think of right now besides well, never mind.

Danielle