November 19 Total News Front

OK, I want to get this out of the way first.

From: Lytewyng Date Posted: 19 Nov 2003

I have been meaning to redo this section for the longest, but I could never find a code that I liked and worked for me. I tried to just do an HTML link, but even that didn’t want to work properly. So it’s Copy and Paste and Search (on the front page). (Reader’s Note: As of 6:56 P.M. I got the HTML code for a link to work.)

Yesterday (Tuesday, November 18, 2003) after I left Prestina’s was something else. I saw Cris coming out of the store and he kept walking. If he and I were still together he would have stopped. I know that he saw me too. He looked directly at me. But he walked to his house and walked to his car. Then he walked toward his front door. It was like he was trying to stall going in the house. He was.

He came out to the end of the driveway and talked to me. He did ask me why I have no ass. Grufph! As if I don’t know about my lack of ghetto booty, but I do have a Danielle booty. So there! He also pestered me for sex. Well, he said that he wanted to make love to me before the year was out and all of this, but he doesn’t want to get back together. Before you jump to conclusions and think him a total dog, you should know that though I still sort of want him, I don’t want to be back with him just yet either. I also don’t think that sleeping together is a very good idea. I don’t even know how I feel about him right now.

He even stated that he would do anything to get me to say yes. He told me that he would put his manhood on the line and sleep with a guy. He said that he would get buck ass nekkid right there and walk/run up and down the street in 50 degree weather. He said that he would run a mile straight if I wanted him to. Anything he needed to do to get there.

I did tell him if it were to happen it would happen at the end of December. I had to talk to some people first. Namely, my insurance company to see when my renewal (sp?) would go through so I that can get my birth control. The last thing I want from Cris is a baby. I don’t care if we use condoms or not, I don’t want to take that chance. I know in my heart that I would not keep the baby and I know that he doesn’t agree with that sort of thing. In fact, I would have an abortion. I simply wouldn’t keep it.

I had mucho mucho fun at school today. It was all “Girl, you won’t believe this!” and “I got something to tell you, just wait until third period!” with plenty of neck popping and lip smacking and “Uh huh”s and “Oh girl!”s. It was great! Fourth period was funny today too, even though Jerimiah’s friend, Marquis (sp?) wouldn’t leave me alone today. He was sort of talking to me in first period as well. He just has this fixation on my breasts, as all men I encounter. Guh. Pervs. *rolls eyes* He kept making this cup thing with his hand and I kept hitting him and his hand.

We were all laughing together when the boys kept doing their versions of the ghetto booty display that girls do for some odd reason in pictures. They also made fun of the poses that girls do in those ImageShots pictures. It was hilarious. God!!! I want him! Jerimiah, not Marquis. *lol*

I told CiCi, this girl who has third period with me, about the thing with Cris and this journal. She says that she wanted to read more after I let her read the printout copy of the entry and Cris’ response that I stapled in my offline journal. Her and Kushana (sp?) kept saying how I needed to turn my journal into a book or a movie. Silly girls. Cici did tell me that I was a good writer and so was Cris. *lol*

So back to last night with Cris. We were talking and I was going to leave because he was upsetting me with all his sex talk. I just wanted him to leave me alone. I don’t know why he can’t just get it through his head that I don’t want to do that right now. It’s just not a possiblity right now. He told me that he couldn’t wait longer than a month. I am going to ask him what he would do if I told him “No” flat out.

We did end up making out. He kissed me quickly to get rid of some of that tension that was building up. We seem to have this fire that crackles and pops when we are near each other. I tingle all over when he gets too close. We just vibe. So I ended up initiating the kissing kissing. I even backed him into the tree at the end of his yard. All these people were drving by and honking at us. It was funny. His eyelids kept fluttering and he couldn’t finish a sentence in English. It was amusing.

Eventually I left and he watched me walk away. For some reason I turned around as I got half way down the street and I saw him following me. He was freaking following me! Yikies! *lol* So I pretended I didn’t see him and kept walking. I turned down the street before my own to walk the long way home. He followed me there. About half way down the street when he got right up behind me I half turned around and asked him why was he following me. He told me “That’s not fair.” and grabbed my arm. He turned me all the around and started kissing me on the lips and biting at them too. It was tres tres passionate! I couldn’t believe it because I was right there in front of someone’s house!

After he finished he turned around and started to walk home. I said something like “Wait a minute!” and “Oh hell no!” and stalked after him. I grabbed him in that person’s driveway, turned him around, and kissed him back. He wasn’t just going to go around kissing me and then leaving! Nuh uh! No sir! Then he asked me what was the point of that and I told him that I wasn’t going to allow him to kiss me and run. So then we started talking and walking and he asked me what was all of this about. I asked him was he talking about me kissing him or him kissing me or him following me. He said all of it because he said that you don’t go around kissing exes and stuff and I said that I didn’t know and that maybe it was just pent up energy. I told him that it had been a while since we last kissed/touched. We are always explosive like this together.

So then he said that we were going to walk to the end of the street and go our separate ways when we got to the STOP sign. I said OK and started walking. I claimed the sidewalk which he claimed wasn’t fair. I said “So.” and jumped the ditch. He still talked to me as we were walking and gravitated to the other side of the ditch. When we got to the end of the street I said goodbye. He asked me if he wasn’t even going to get a hug since he walked me half way home. I said OK and came back to give him a hug. We ended up kissing some more and all these cars kept driving by and honking at us and the people inside kept looking at us funny. *lol*

He wanted me to give Not So Little Cris some attention but I said “No.” since we were standing on a street corner that I pass up all the freaking time. But I did give him a sort of light brush over a couple of times. I told him that it was ho-ish to do grabbing right there. He asked me if I was calling him a ho. I didn’t say anything. He said that he was a ho. He would be a ho. I was like Oh-kay!!! Eventually I turned to walk home. I asked him if he was going to go, but he just stood there and said that he might want to watch me walk home. He watched me walk all the way to my street (a block down). *shakes head* He insisted that I call him when I got home to let him know that I got home OK every time that we parted.

I told him that I would think about the sex thing. I just don’t know right now, but it’s a very good chance that he could become my lover since there is so much chemistry there.

Oh! I talked to Dawn and Cici and Kushana about Jerimiah and his girlfriend. She’s an ex that he wants another go round with. I can respect that. I have done that. I am living that. He did say that I was cute however. hehehehe weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! If only he were mine and then I could make out with him! *lol* I asked Kushana and Cici if it would be wrong to say that I hoped things didn’t work out with his ex. They ignored me and said that I was VERY wrong to say that. I laughed and said that I was kiddding.

Anyway, that was all. I had to get it all out since I am not going to write again on today’s date. If I have anymore to say I will write it tomorrow (Thursday, November 20, 2003). I came to the library to return a couple of overdue books and write here. I am going to do that, read my journals/diaries, and then get out of here. I have to call Cris too since he asked me to. Oh God. . .

More when it happens,

Danielle