Never Me Alone!

Gosh! I had hoped to come to the library and have some kind of peace and to finish rewriting my sex story for Cris, but you know what? That can’t happen! Do you know why? Prestina and Cris decided to tag along. Cris won’t stop pestering me about what was in the plastic library bag that I am carrying. It contains his copy of my story. He kept asking me why am I keeping secrets from him. At least they have the decency to stay at that table and not bother me while I am here at the computer. They are talking about me and laughing. It’s driving me crazy. I am starting to think that their coming is a terrible idea. I just wanted to be alone.

I was all set to write this big entry about the emotional almost break up of me and Cris that took place yesterday, but I going crazy looking over and seeing them chatting away. I can’t even leave because I have wait for my Mom to come and get me. I got a Daypass from the bus driver, but I told my Mom to come by and get me.

Ok, I guess that I will write about everything now. At least Prestina isn’t looking over my shoulder this time.

Yesterday I walked to Prestina’s to hang out and I asked Cris to come by for a few minutes. Whenever I ask him to come outside or come over to Prestina’s it’s a huge production and it takes him forever. I was particularly tired yesterday so I walked home. Well, I knew that he could com by so I decided to sit on the porch and read until he showed up. He did and he was quite somber.

We had this talk about how he wanted to break up. I did my best to hold my crying urge back and be “understanding”. It seems that I do that a lot. *rolls eyes*

He told me that he would call me in an hour and tell me what he decided. He asked me what I felt about “the situation” and I told him that I wanted to try.

The reason he wanted to break up was that he had a girlfriend before that he loved very much and she moved away for college. He hated that they drifted apart and that she couldn’t be there when he really needed her. He said that he had been really broken hearted over it.

*takes big breath*

So, he called me two hours later and told me that he wanted to try. I was sure that he was going to say ‘no’. As soon as we hung up I called Eynar back to let him know what had happened. During the time that I was waiting I was so pent up that I had to talk to someone, so I called Eynar. I told him absolutely everything that had been going on since we hadn’t spoken for a few weeks.

Anyway, here we are and I think that maybe I should give up on this one. We aren’t even well matched. I have never gotten along with a Gemini and I don’t see it now.

*sighs*

I want to cry.

Danielle