The Beginning’s Summed Up
(1:19 A.M. – 2:18 A.M. US Central Time/Friday/Prestina’s house)
[imood mood at time of entry: sleepy]
I am so sleepy right now, but I wanted to write and this is the only time that everyone is settled down enough to allow me the privacy I need to write.
New Year’s was OK. Nothing exciting in the least happened to me. I cleaned on my house and hung solo until I came over here around 9 P.M. or so.
Prestina was the one who had the interesting time today. Jay, the high school forever guy, called her and left her this sorry ass message begging her to call him yesterday (Wednesday, December 31, 2003). She called back and he didn’t pick up. She called Thursday (January 1, 2004) to wish him a Happy New Year’s. She had to go and she told him that she would call later when she got to her house. He pretty much said “Whatever.”
So later on the psycho on-again-off-again girlfriend of Jay named, Olivia, called for Prestina on her mother’s cell phone. Well she went all out trying to tell Ptrestina not to call her man anymore. She also cursed me too. *grumbles Crazy bitch.* *laughs* Anyway, she kept calling back and Prestina told her that she would play the message that Jay left on her voicemail for her (Olivia). She told her that she would do so when she got home. Olivia copped a nasty attitude and said that she didn’t have all day to wait on Prestina to get home. Well if she wanted to hear the message, then she had to wait until Prestina got home. She planned on doing a three way on the house phone.
By the time Prestina got home, her number was blocked and she couldn’t call Olivia. In that time Jay also called and complained about Prestina getting him in trouble. I mean he was the one that called Prestina I don’t know what he is talking about honestly.
I talked to Tenz earlier too. I know that this will sound hypocritical and extraordinarily mean, but he is soooo hung up over me. I have told him many times that I am not interested in him. He knows that I have no desire for him. Never have, never will. Sure we went out a time or two because I am pretty much willing to give every guy a chance, but I have never felt any chemistry between us. He is freaking 28-years-old! He’s nasty and pants over me like a slobbering puppy. He told me that he’s had an erection since he last saw me which was on Monday (December 29, 2003). Uh um. . . yuck.
I was sort of flattered in a weird way, but not enough that this would be a turn on for me. Usually that sort of thing would be like “Yeah! I’m a sex goddess!!!! I rock and I want you!!!”, but coming from him it’s just yucky. He always tries to grab ahold of me and kiss me on the neck and face. He always smells digusting and doesn’t know the meaning of the word “NO.” *shakes head*
I had a lovely dream earlier and I have contemplated posting it here all day long. It’s sort of long, but I like dream recollections to be detailed, so I will only put the Jeff part.
I didn’t consciously know why at the time, but I finally got it in my dream Thursday morning (January 1, 2004). When I first saw Lytewyng’s picture I thought, “Ump, nice! I’d go out with him! I don’t know what he’s always bitching about.” Well, it turns out that he reminded me of my ex Jeff. Jeff was the love of my 16-year-old life. I adored him and he adored me. We actually met online and just stuck from there. (I’ll write an entry about him down the line.) Anyway, I had been sort of missing him along with Jesse, my first real lover (There will more about him at a later time too.). All of this missing showed up in my dream.
He came to my house with a female friend and he’d come to see me. I was calling him Jeff, but he looked an awful lot like Brandon (Lytewyng) even though he looked like Jeff. He kept going back and forth. He crawled into bed with me and woke me up. My mom was asleep on the other side of me. He perched over me and smiled down at me. I smiled up at him. He pushed my long nightgrown up with his knee and rub his knee between my legs. As he moved around he mostly got the right spot. (*lol*) I felt all the wonderful waves and then he climbed off of me after I climaxed. He started acting strange, like he wasn’t sure about me anymore. He couldn’t even look at me in the face.
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That’s pretty much what happened though I am sort of leaving small bits out. As the dream was going on I asked him where did he go to college. WVU flashed in my head because I knew that Brandon went there and he said “West Texas University.” I said to myself that that wasn’t so bad in relation of the distance from him to me. I was thinking rekindling our love. When I would caress his face I called him Jeff, but “But his name is Brandon.” kept going in my head. Hrmm.
I know sort of know what the dream means about the great feeling and then the guy going away. No, we never slept together, not to say that we didn’t plan to, but it didn’t work out. In fact, he was going to give me his virginity, but that’s another entry.
Anyway, this is getting long and if Deimos is still online after I proof read this, I’m going to talk to her. Ta ta for now!
Well, I didn’t wait and I talked to her while proofing this, so it’s taken me forever to get done. *lol* Hey Deimos!! *waves*
~ Danielle ~