Alterations

[imood mood at time of entry: ok]

I received the following two emails from my nasty ex of last year’s drama. It surprised me to find his first email waiting on me in my Inbox. I wrote back, and he sent me another email the following week. I replied back to the second email (the closer of the two to the top), with a note basically saying that he should not be bullshitting himself because he knew the type of relationship we had. It was horrible, manipulative, and in all forms, abusive. The fact that a year later, he is back at trying to manipulate me into believing that I am the bad one here, is not lost on me. I found it highly amusing that he had the nerve to feel upset that I am over him, and threw our previous “relationship” to the wayside. I have no need for such feelings, so, why should I hold on to them?

This Thanksgiving has also proven to be full of change. Instead of spending the day with family, eating until I passed out, or felt like puking, I had a calm, peaceful holiday. That was until my mom got home and started snapping at me. Normally, the day would begin with my Mom in the kitchen cooking us our holiday meal. I would wander in to help her whenever I chose to wake up. But this year, Mom went straight to my aunt’s without so much as a “Good-bye.”

She decided to yell at me about my Internet/computer usage this morning. She has got to be one of the world’s least receptive people that I am bound to ever come across. I would say the most, but the older, acidic relatives that are still hanging on have that claim, hands down. She also wanted to yell at me about other nonsense while at Wal-Mart on Friday (November 26, 2004). Pfft.

My writing is coming along OK, but I am reading more, since, I had been reading this story over the past few days. I have told everyone why it is that I am on the computer so much, but this does not seem to register. I have no books here at home, so, I am “forced” to use the Internet for reading material. This joy is firmly swooping over the heads of my family, since, they are a bunch of non-readers. Pfft.

The Yahoo! Group is growing a bit lately, and I finally have someone to talk to. I truly don’t care how many people are in the group, as long as I have someone to talk to. There was this discussion yesterday about how far is too far when one adores a celebrity. Nice!

I walked to a neighborhood park that I had not visited in over a year. It was relaxing and felt quite refreshing to be back there. It is a wonderful place for thought. I was going to write, but I decided it was too cold to sit still there, and came home. The walk there and back again was invigorating.

I suppose that I will get on with a bit of writing, and more things off of my Internet To Do List. I hope that everyone had a wonderful Turkey Day.

Danielle

P.S. I am not omitting his email in this posting because I do not give a damn about his privacy. Emotionally torturing people can have that backlash sometimes. *lol*

What does “It’s OK because it’s not like we were extremely close
before anyway” mean? me and you dated, shared intimate moments and you don’t
call that close. alls i did was try to say hello and im sorry for not
speaking, didn’t really intend to be insulted with a low blow. see i new i was
going to regret it it. damn me man. damn me.

From: Danielle Mitchell
To: Cristin Moses
Subject: Hey
Date: Wed, 10 Nov 2004 16:30:07 -0800 (PST)

Hey Cris,

I saw you too after I doubled around. I hadn’t realized that you were
standing there with that other salesman until I turned to look at
something. Even then, I did a double take. I am sure that you had
your reasons, and I didn’t say anything either. It’s OK because it’s not
like we were extremely close before anyway. Have a good one.

Danielle

Cristin Moses wrote:

I hope i don’t regret this but i saw yall up at sears and did not say
anything. kinda juvinille i suppose but i have my reasons. anyways i
just wanted to say hello and apologize for my behavior. anyways feel free
to respond or not. see ya round