General Entry

Well, I feel conflicted about Cris. I know that he is one of those guys that need space and don’t want to hear the words “I love you” too soon, but I feel as though I have waited forever to tell him. I have been waiting for us to go out for over 14 years now. See! No one can call not not patient! *lol* I am dying to dive into the sexual part of the relationship, but I know that I need to wait. I need to be sure about him.

Oh! I loooooved this quote that I read in MangoRain’s Diary. I really needed to read that right now. I am so caught up in how I look to Cris. He likes the way I am, but I want to lose to weight. I want to be cuter. Smaller. You know. Ok this it the quote:

She got it from a Hindi movie.

I sent the fifth chapter of my Alan sex story to Jade. She said that it was good and that the friendship had ended and that she hoped that I could find someone to review my stories. Ouch. All I could think was Brrrrrr. Reine de glace. I think the Alan story will end in Chapter Six. I had this sudden burst and I finished off the fifth chapter Thursday.

I also changed the story around and I am going to give Cris a copy of what I have written so far. *lol* I have three chapters changed around and printed.

I spent the night at Prestina’s and I had a good talk with Prestina’s mom about what was going on in my life. I finally told them about seeing the dead and my dreams that tell me the future and more stuff like that. It’s not something that I consider talk about worthy. I am glad that I can’t see the dead anymore. It drive me crazy. I am glad that I can sense them anymore. I don’t want to. I don’t want any of those “gifts” They are curses. I hate it.

Hmmm I suppose I should change the subject now.

Well, I was supposed to get my hair pressed this morning, but Mom took my cousin, Dee to the hospital for her headaches. That means that I am going to have to wait until tomorrow maybe.

I had a bunch to write, but I think it was mostly about Cris. I am going to get off and look for Prestina now.

I would have written this at Prestina’s house, but her mom has the AOL spyware looking at everything she does and I don’t want he knowing where my journal is. I don’t need her knowing my business.

Danielle