On The Run and Got To Catch Up

The urge to get up and write in my journal was so desparately strong early this morning as I have developed a pattern. I couldn’t since the most illogical person known to me kept yelling at me to get off the computer. I simply do not know what her problem is.

I feel so worn down. My eyes hurt and feel sunken in. I have not been out in the sun today nor yesterday. I went out side last night though, I think. I do have a blurry memory of being outside for a few minutes.

I got the Vottorio Audiobook CD last night and I am dying in it’s clutches. I do not know what I am going to do when I have to go to work tomorrow. The sound of Alan’s voice so captivating that I had to all and out force myself to come update my journal and change my mood and check my constantly piling email. I can’t wait until I am finished reading all of the articles and writing this entry and everything else that I need to do so I can get back to my story.

I also have to go to the post office to mail out this burnt cd that I made for a friend who I met through the Alan mailing list. She has not heard the music from Cabaret yet and someone stole the cd from the library. I just happen to have a copy form the library and I made her a copy. That is another thing that I have to do. Return all the stuff that I have borrowed from the library. It keeps adding up. I don’t know how I will manage to carry it all. I feel so attached to it as well. ;.; I must also mail out my payment to this nice woman who is going to send me tapes of Alan appearances. It is going to cost eight bucks per tape if I want more than one or ten flat for one. I am going to order two so I will have more Alan love.

Anyway, I will be back later to come add more as I feel that I have made a good record for my own sake for future reading. Must remember it all I must.

-Danielle