New Kind of Thing

Ok, so now I can finally say it. I am well on the way to being absolutely, totally over Cris! Yes! *pumps fists in the air*

I also got to hear for myself what kind of bastard Cris really is. Prestina, Jalen, Dame’on’s sister, Sacorra, and I were all hanging out in the back room. I dialed Cris’ cell phone number and put the phone to Prestina’s ear. She talked to him while I listened in on the extention. He said these things that hurt me. Also, he comfirmed what I felt about Jill. *sigh* He said that he could have me back if he wanted me and that I would just jump at the chance. He was also stuck up enough to think that I hadn’t being getting over him at all. Hello!!! Jerimiah!!! And Prestina didn’t bother even tell him that I had been, even though I had been sort of missing him. Well, going out while he footed the bill. That was sincerely the best thing about him really. *hunches*

I was hurt, but I went home and looked through my spell books. Yes, Prestina, that’s right spell books. I borrowed them from the library to find a way to heal my broken heart. Of course I wll not be able to do the spells they provided since I don’t have the stuff needed. I don’t even know what one of the items is that I need. It’s some kind of herb.

Anyway, just reading through the books made me feel better. I said a little prayer to myself, burnt this paper that I had been holding on to that was connected to Cris, said “Goodbye Cris.” as it finished burning, and blew myself a kiss in the bathroom mirror on the way out. I am still hella good as ever.

I have this big smile on my face because I know that I will rule in my next relationship. I will THE girlfriend to beat next time around. I won’t let this beat me down because I love myself much more than I ever loved Cris.

For now it’s to hell with boys and to heaven with my myself/heart.

So it turns out that writing that entry that got everyone so huffy turned out to be the best thing I ever did. It finally got me out of a bad reltionship that wasn’t going anywhere. I got to say things that I wanted to say.

Also, I know that I never said who the guy was that I liked at the time. The guy was Cris’ bestfriend, Redie. Yea sure, we could never get together because he would never like me and he has a girlfriend, but that was never the point of the crush. It truly wasn’t. It just helped me to see that there were other guys out there other than Cris.

Oh! I stopped by the store on the way back over here from my house to buy a soda. I nodded a you’re-being-blown-off-because-I’m-so-over-you nod at Cris and strutted to the back of the store to get a soda shaking my ass the entire way. I made sure to work those hips because I knew his eyes were on me. I then walked my butt up to the counter. I dumped my purse and radio on the counter and got my dollar out. Cris handed it back to me all suave-like, told me that Prestina was looking for me, and that he liked the baseball cap that I was wearing.

*raises eyebrow*

Awesomeness.

I am going to be just fine.

Danielle

P.S. See! I got one in on the day of the date!