Cris The Great? Try Cris The Jerk

Yet another entry I must begin with a deep sigh. Part of it is because I am tired. I just got back from SW Houston and part of it is from Cris.

Cris and I are just too different. I am an emotion based person while he is more of a thinker. I am thinker too, but I am ruled by my feelings as any true Cancer/Water sign.

God!! There is some ghetto guy here that keeps bothering me. He is trying to make me get off of this computer and he has taken my radio! I just want to smack him.

Ok, back to my Cris issues. I went over to Prestina’s to hang out after not seeing her for a few days. We called Cris over so that he and I could make out and talk. He was all “What if we get caught?” because Prestin’a grandmother was there. I didn’t tell him that we had to go all out. Just a kiss here and there. So we did that. He left to go get his truck from Firestone located in the mall. He was extremely anxious to do this. Prestina later informed me that this was because that was where all his condoms were.

He called over to the house and talked to Prestina after he got back. *sighs* God. . .

So I was all set in the afternoon time, but I was kind of cramping by night time. I wasn’t really in the mood for anything. The short version of it is that Cris acted like a jerk last night and I am seriously considering my options. I even made a list of things that I hate about him and things that are good about dating him. The hate list is longer right now. I haven’t finished yet though.

Cris lacks some qualities that I deem important that any potenial lover/long term boyfriend should have. He has no imagination, he does not have a range of feelings, he is governed only by thought, I caught him in lie, he can be inconsiderate and pushy. I just don’t know if I want to stay with him. This is why I don’t date Chistian, guys from my neighborhood. Oh! and he is a hypocrite too! He told me that I should not sterotype men and my neighborhood, but he does the same thing with women.

I knew that Cris wasn’t right for me, but I still wanted to see. Cris could never keep me happy. Sure he pays for everything and opens doors and asks where I want to eat, but all of that is canceled out by his attitude. God, I hate men. There just aren’t any good ones.

Oh! and like a true pig he told me that I should consider being a topless dancer and that I shouldn’t reduce my oversized breasts because ‘all the men in America would pay to see them’. He brags about his sexual experiences like this will turn me on and make me want him. Quite the opposite actually. He is all about sex, but wants me to believe that that is not all that he wants from me. I lust after him of course, but I have no intention of sleeping with him anytime soon. He tried his hardest to convince me to sleep with him last night. When I told him that nothing he could say would change my mind and that it just wasn’t going to happen he said that he heard that before. We were at the freaking park for goodness sake and he took a condom out of his car “just in case”. Jeesh what a jerk!

I don’t why God hates me so. No, I take that back. I don’t know why God is such an idiot. Why does he allow men to exist anyway if the majority of them suck? Cris made me so mad last night. He always upsets me. We are too different to be together.

Hmmm, I think he knows it too. I think that we will be breaking up in the next couple of days. I don’t want to deal with this anymore. I want to go ahead and go to San Marcos if the school will ever get through with my paperwork. This is ridiculous that I have waited this long. At least the delay gave me time to explore the Cris option. I have always longed for him and now that I have him, I don’t like him. Not completely. I am tired of trying. I need to just be away.

When I asked him why he liked me last night he told me initially he couldn’t put his finger on what attracted him to me. His exact words did include the phrase “Shit happens.” Ugh. He also said that he likes that I am unique and that he had not met anyone like. He also said that he liked that I am not willing to change who I am for anyone, but he later tried to convince me to change who I am. What a prick. He also called me ‘stupid’ when I said something. I am so fustrated. Oh, the lie I caught him in was what was he talking about with Prestina. He was asking her if he had any chance of sleeping with me. When I asked him about all her “Maybes” he told me that he had been asking her about Damien’s party and saying hello. Yea, like I was going to believe that. If he has lied about this what else has he lied to me about.

I simply can’t trust Cris. He does not want to be my boyfriend. He wants to sleep with me. Ugh.

Danielle