Thank God!

*breathes big sigh of relief* I knew that I should have listened to my intuition about Cris! He just wasn’t right for me. First off he was a Gemini and I am a Cancer. I mean how obvious is that?! Well, we broke up last night and Prestina finally told me what Cris and her had been talking about at the library when we all went together.

I met Prestina’s friend Tiffanie a couple of weeks ago and disliked her immediately. I knew that she would steal Cris away from me because she is what he would want. I was right. I was so right about everything. The feeling of us not clicking, of us not having a future, everything. I even ignored my dreams. My dreams and intuition have always been correct and had I listened to to them I would have saved myself a lot of heartache and embarassment. Now I am all broken because I tried to do the impossible, stay with Cris.

Cris had been talking to Tiffanie the whole time that we had been going out. I was stupid to think that we could ever be together.

I am hurting right now, but I am feeling better to have gotten a lot of hurt and unspoken things off my chest.

The biggest reasons that I stayed with Cris this long was because I thought it would upset Prestina if we broke up since they are cousins and all. The other reason is because I thought Cris really liked me more than I liked him.

I called him up from Prestina’s after she told me about Tiffanie and told him to forget about the week that we were going to take off. He said that he wanted to talk to me. He came over and I blew him off. Then he ignored me. I suppose that I should have given him a chance to get anything that he needed to talk about off his chest. I wanted to watch Smallville instead. I am going to call him and let him know that I handle everything badly and that if he wanted to talk we could and that I was just upset.

*big big sigh*

God, I hate men and love. I can’t stand it. I actually thought I could change myself enough to make things work out. I believed that I could stay with a guy for a long time. I know that one day I will be able to, but that day is no time soon. At least it is not going to be with Cris.

Let the healing begin.

Danielle