Work and Sex (-R Entry)

God!

I had to work today and it was O.K. for the most part. This guy that I can’t stand, but is kind of cute, was on duty with me today. He’s such a fucking prick that it’s simply ridiculous.

We had a trainee there today as well. I liked him lots. We ran around the theater together on break. It was fun. We saw a little of the sneak preview of The Matrix Reloaded. It looks OK, but I wasn’t real excited about it. In fact, I was feeling kind of let down by it. Maybe it was because I didn’t see it from the beginning. I don’t know.

Mom’s bitching and telling me to get off the computer because I shouldn’t stay up all night. What is her problem with me and the computer?? Crazy family.

I’m trying my damnest to work on my website, but either the server is acting shitty or I can’t get around to it because I’m busy working, or sleeping because I’m so tired out from working. I’m adding a Family Album to the site so everyone can see what I come from. ~~ Note the look on my face. ~~

I went to this other girl’s diary on this different provider and I liked it. I haven’t decided if I like their diaries better yet.

God!!! The sex thoughts are REALLY going! I really think about just grabbing a guy and going for it, but I don’t want just anybody, that and I want to get back into shape. I hate being bigger. I like it, but then I don’t like it. I don’t like the way I jiggle when I walk or the way people stare. Fucking big boobs! I fucking hate the boys even more. They’re so stupid and are perverts.

I don’t know what to do about that yet, but the answers will come.

God!

I am at a lost for words when I think about my life and how it really should be. I know how I want it and it just goes ashew. Like it has a mind of it’s own.

Shit! I didn’t put the time! I wanted to put the time, but I just wanted to get into writing so bad. I’ll go back and put something though.

My fucking speakers won’t work and I can’t hear a damn thing from them even though they are plugged in and the light is on. I just kind of want to listen to some music before I go to bed and read. I’ve been dying for a read all day, but I forgot my book at home. I’m desparate to turn some pages. I’ll probably finish the whole thing off judging by the ravenous way I feel.

My obssession is getting out of control, but that is always the case when I “discover” a new celeb to crush on. God! What is wrong with me??

I don’t know that either. I swear I’m so fucked up sometimes that I just don’t know what to do.

Me and my crazy self.

We stopped by Jack In The Box on the way home from work. I got off at 11:30 P.M., but we couldn’t leave because my mom and brother were watching Daddy Daycare which I didn’t care much for. Probably because I just watched the ending.

I’ve got to go surf and go see my crush some more. I need to drool!!

Well that’s it. I’ll probably come back later on and write some more. I need purging seeing as how I am so wound up inside. I’ve got that sick feeling again with the bile. Ugh!

~Danielle