Peaceful

[imood mood at time of entry: peaceful]

I don’t know what to say for myself. I went back through my journal and read old entries using the Random Entry option, and I came across all of these angry entries. I know that I tend to vent here when I am angry or happy or whatever, but dang! This is what I subject people to??? My goodness! I think that I will start to make the angrier entries Private from now on. I don’t want people to think that I am some weird freako who goes around screaming and ranting over the smallest abuses. I hate to think that I come off that way to other people. *sighs*

So far, today has not been all that bad. Mom and I had this stupid argument over whether I stabbed a bottle with a knife. I hadn’t done it, but she just wouldn’t let it go. For all I know, she might have done it herself and blamed me. But seriously, I know that it was more than likely Brandon, as he has a tendency to do that sort of thing.

Once again I am sitting in the fluorescent atmosphere of the library. The whole place is too bright after I just came from sitting in the park across the street for about half an hour. I always love(d) coming to the Downtown parks and just walking around. Everything is so beautiful here. The city goes out of its way to plant flowers, and trees, and all kinds of plants. Of course, there are birds, and fountains, and people to watch. It’s not so beautiful when the homeless people yell at you, but that doesn’t really happen in the parks, so much as when I am walking down the streets in Downtown.

Before I came here, I sat a small ways away from this table that held two men, and their forced entourage of pigeons and other kind of birds. The darned things simply would not leave them alone. Normally, one does not get the chance to see that kind of thing. The birds were all over the table, the other unoccupied seats, and the ground underneath the table huddled next to the men’s feet.

I felt so relaxed basking in the sun and absorbing the peaceful flow of the world in front of City Hall. I even got complimented! Usually, I screw up my face and scowl at the person offering a compliment, but the guy was so smooth about it, and I was in a great mood, so I smiled back at him and nodded my head in return.

I spent some time with Justin yesterday (June 26, 2004). It was, well, interesting as always. He’s too laid back about some things for me. I appreciate the fact that he’s comfortable around me, but I would like there to be at least some mystery, since, we’ve only been dating three weeks. Yeesh! I really don’t need to see him pick his nose, or hear how his doesn’t like to wash his sheets. Yuck. Maybe it’s just a boy thing because my brother, Brandon, does some of the same things. Maybe it’s because they are around the same age. *hunches* He’s not the worse boyfriend I’ve ever dated, Cris was, but yeesh (!), nose picking?!

I also played with his niece and the neighbors’ child. They are about 7, so, we played make believe cooking and eating. We ate chicken, rice, green beans, and salad. Yum!

I really need to get on to my research paper. Me being the lazy bum that I am, I didn’t do any work on it yesterday. I will have to set myself down, and type up the remaining last half of the paper.

Danielle