La La La Happy Times Ahead

[imood mood at the time of entry:dandy]

Gosh, I feel so sleepy and relaxed right now. Not much that I find exciting has happened as of late. I spent most of late last week at my Aunt Precious’ house. She went to her step-daughter’s for the holiday though she did come back during the daytime.

I also talked to my ever loved ex, Cris, on Saturday (November 29, 2003) while at my aunt’s house. Not surprisingly, he was asking for, well begging, for sex from me. I don’t know what his deal is. I asked him why he wanted to sleep with me and he told me that he had three reason. I don’t even need to say that they aren’t good enough to even consider doing something like that with him. Here are his reasons:

1. He reeeeeally likes my large breasts. He’s a boob guy and mine are the biggest that he has been able to get close to.

2. He has this favorite fantasy about us sleeping together in a nice hotel with oils, and food, and chocolate and rose petals all over the bed and all these kinky, sexual, senual things.

3. He just really wants to.

Now does this sound like anything that contains much sweetness or sensitivity or love or anything remotely resembling respect to you?? I didn’t think so. *smacks lips* He’s too much. I’ve been talking to him on the phone as friends, but it’s just not working out terribly well. Maybe we truly can’t be friends. *sigh* Oh well. I just won’t call him anymore. This is not to say that he won’t call me because he does. But I am sure that he won’t do it so often anymore. Who knows?

I did tell him that if anything were to happen between us, he would have to wait. He would have to wait until January or February. He told me that he could wait until the 14th of February. This might have been due to the fact that he was so honry at the time. I also told him that he would have to eat some spit to get me. That would include, but is not limited to, begging on his knees in front of Prestina and Dame’on, two people he embarassed me in front of and posting a nice long drippy comment in my journal after an entry where I talk crap about him. I would then ridicule him in my journal.

There were a few of times where he was like “Oh forget it!” and wanted to hang up with me. I told him to wait and hold on because I was enjoying playing with him. Testing the water and seeing what he was willing to do even though I know that I wouldn’t do anything with him anytime soon. I said a couple of mean (to him, but not to me), but very truthful things to him. I told him that it would only be sex, which he didn’t like too much. He wants it to mean something apparently. I personally will never allow myself to have feelings for him again. I also said something about getting off to him when we were revealing that we’d had fantasies about each other. I think it was the ultra yea-so-what-you-were-just-a-piece-of-meat-to-me tone that I used when I told him. Oh well. The other time was when I was telling him that I wanted him to screw a guy after hitting on him and picking im up in a club. I would have to approve of the guy as well. He would also have to let the guy give him oral. Gosh I’m naughty.

Anyway, school wasn’t bad today. It just sort of flew by as usual. I did catch up work for yesterday (Monday, December 1, 2003) since I didn’t go to school. I really wanted to go, but all my clothes were yucky. I just couldn’t go stinky.

I took my camera that my Aunt Violet (my Mom’s sister that lives in California, but is in town for a week) bought over the weekend from Walgreens and took pictures of my friends, (including that cutie, Jerimiah) and the little hidden garden-esqe place in my school. I fell in love with it the moment I saw it. I want to get all my pictures developed soon. I just have to finish out the roll.

Thanksgiving wasn’t bad at all. Everyone is walking around talking about all the drama they had over the holiday. I had none. I had a nice quiet, peaceful, delicious dinner at my aunt’s house. I got to relax and just chill and let everything go. It was a total vacation for me, if not exactly mentally stimulating. I guess you can’t have it all. My Science teacher, Mr Damon, did tell me and my first period that he set a tree on fire while deep frying a turkey. Some people just should not cook!!!

Well, Prestina’s waiting on me to go to the mall and walk around. I forgot to bring my camera so that we can take pictures. I might walk home and get it along with my applications. I need to put them in. I just need to print out my resume.

Oh, Prestina, you asked what was I waving at in your comment to my last entry. I was waving at you dumbass! *lol* I do that every now and then. See. *waves at everyone happily* la la la la la

Oh! I almost forgot to thank MangoRain for all the good advice and compliments that she left in my journal last week. Thanks girl! It means a lot to me. My readers just make me melt when they leave heartfelt comments. Hint. Hint. *winks*

Lots of Love,

Danielle