Weepy Times

*yawns* Gosh I’m tired. I slept well yesterday for the most part. I have been so tired the past few days. I do have a bit of news today though.

Let’s start with the happiest and work down.

Turns out that Chris and I will have some sort of a future together after all. *lol* We got to talking last week (Friday, September 12, 2003) when I saw him in the parking lot of his grandfather’s store. He was on his way to get a haircut and run other errands. He told me that he knew something was going on since I had been acting funny. Turns out that my craziness seems to attract him to me. *lol*

Personally, I don’t know why anyone sane would want me. But, everyone likes something different I suppose. I guess that I should not complain, but I just don’t feel the least bit attractive. I truly do not see why people have expressed interest in me. *sad chuckles*

Anyway, after I missed the movie date and I went to my Aunt Precious’ for the weekend, we spoke over the phone on Sunday (September 14, 2003). I was watching something and he was watching our Texans play against um hmm I forget right now. Anyway, he told that he wanted to ask me something straight out and very blunt. I completely freaked at the thought of what he might ask me. Usually guys pretend to be nice and then start asking me questions about my boobs and my non existent sex life like the perverts they are. I have become so used to this that I always expect the conversation to get around to it eventually. Sad really.

Turns out that he asked me to be his girlfriend. *lol* I was sort of excited for a moment and then remembered San Marcos. I finally told him about San Marcos and school since I hadn’t told him up until then since I thought we would not be speaking to one another very long. *hunches* He got real quiet and said that it sucked. He always asked me about this club that David and I were talking about the night we all were out together. He said that he wanted to go with me. I said OK knowing full well that my Mom would throw a hissy fit. I am 18 and she still thinks that she can control who I can date. Its ridiculous the way she acts. She’s a frocking psycho!

He wants to go before I head out. I do too. If we go, I will take him to the porn shop across the street so that I can buy more incense. The ones I bought when I went out with Alex and her boyfriend are more than half way gone.

OK, now for the sad news. My beloved beta fish, Spike died on Monday (September 15, 2003). I loved that fish. I was so weepy and everything Tuesday (September 14, 2003). Monday I had to shut myself down. I am still cryie-like now because I miss him so much. I thought about replacing him, but I did not want to. I keep looking up to see him or get ready to feed him and he’s not there. It breaks me every time that I look up and see the water globe with the red rose inside that now sits in his place. *sighs* I miss my fish. I got him earlier this year. I think it was in April. I will have to go back and read. *sigh* Now on to the next entry.

-Danielle