Fucked Up Again
(7:29 P.M. – 7:42 P.M. US Central)
I have to wonder is there anyway for me to touch something without it turning to shit on me. Everything I do always ends up a muddled and trash worthy junk pile of mess.
I was just talking to Jade a few minutes ago and now she is all upset over what I said. I will post the chat.
Danni: i need to good moan
Danni: are you busy?
superflirtzalot: Nope
Danni: ok
Danni: i was feeling some better and than this girl got mad because i got mad because we were talking about racists and there was this whole big thing about adolph hitler
Danni: and amanda the bitch girl was acting to nice
Danni: and none of my groups will send me all fo the messages
Danni: and i am thirsty!
Danni: *sighs*
Danni: that felt good! thanks!
superflirtzalot: No problem
superflirtzalot: *sends hugs*
Danni: and i can’t seem to get change for my five to likfe my pathetic life!
Danni: god!
Danni: *hugs*
Danni: i am going to get some juice
superflirtzalot: ok
Danni: god! this juice is good!! and cold!
superflirtzalot: lol
Danni: hahahah
Danni: *sighs* I sould ridiculous!
superflirtzalot: Oh well…you keep me entertained….
superflirtzalot:
Danni: my fucking momis here screaming at
Danni: me
Danni: fucking hope she has an accident! bitch
Danni: GRRRR
superflirtzalot: I’m sorry….*hugs*
Danni: sighs* and i just felt better too!
Danni: i fucking hate !! when she does that
Danni: she keeps asking me her stupid questions
Danni: !
superflirtzalot: *nods my head* Belive me…I know what you mean…..
Danni: *shakes head*
Danni: *sucks teeth*
Danni: *sighs*
Danni: *wishes for gun right . . about . . now!*
Danni: grrr
superflirtzalot: <---wishes she could say something to help
Danni: <--wishes she could shoot herself!
Danni: *raises eyebrow*
superflirtzalot: Don’t say that…..
Danni: but that is how i feel right now
Danni: then i would have no more problems
Danni: they would all go away
Danni: ad maybe i could have some peace for once!
Danni:
superflirtzalot: *really tries not cry because she doesn’t know what to say*
Danni: oh well sorry
Danni: i just say what i feel at the moment
superflirtzalot: Maybe I should go…..let you cool off…….
Danni: does not mean i feel that way all the time
Danni: just at that moment
Danni: but i will go ahead and go now since i am making things worse
superflirtzalot: You aren’t!
superflirtzalot: Its just……..nevermind…….
Danni: i am!
superflirtzalot: Go ahead and vent…..
Danni: you know i am!
Danni: you are thinking about your friends who killed themselves and i am talking about shooting myself! that does not make things better
superflirtzalot: I don’t mind……I’m just acting like a baby…..
Danni: never mind
Danni: later
We were talking on Yahoo! Mess and I just left and then she put all her away messages on.
I was in this big fight thing about Adolph Hitler and racists on my Crispin Glover Y! Group. So this girl got all mad and then I got mad and then she said she’d shut up and all this crazy crap was happening. She was saying how she thought Adolph was a genius and all of this like she freaking worshiped him! But weirdest of all, bitch girl Amanda was playing peace maker and was nice to me. I think it was because I finally said how I felt excluded on that list because I am Black and all this stuff. So now it’s all that’s not true! and Crispin is/is not racist and I will just shut up now because I am not valued.
*rolls eyes and sighs*
So now I have to find some way to get Jade talking again. I do know now not to talk to Jade when I am mad because she gets all upset and she has it bad as it is. So I will just write here in my journal and turn the comments off and not tell anyone anything. It’s not worth it. I should have remained anon on the internet, but noooooo! I couldn’t do that! Beautiful. Just beautiful! I fucking hope I get my brains blown out so all my problems would go away forever.
~Danielle
P.S. I worked on my site today. I got rid of the Thoughts page finally, added Crispin as the feature, and changed the front page. I think everything look better.