Alan Surfing

It’s almost 5 A.M. in the fucking morning and here I am surfing around looking at this girl’s journal. She really does rock by the way. Anyway she’s all obsessed over Alan too and I love reading her entries. It makes me feel better about my own addiction and all the dirty thoughts that I have. Is it so bad to spend the majority of my day thinking about what it would be like to get it on with Alan?

I surely hope not! Because that’s how I spend most of my day. I guess everyone thinks that I’m thinking about something all deep and meaningful when I’m really just having sexual fantasies about a man that I will never meet and a man that I would never sleep with in real life. 1) I’m just too insecure with my body, 2) He’s too old for goodness sake’s!!, 3) I would NEVER be able to keep up with him as he is waaaay more experienced than me!!, and 4) I don’t think he’d like me as I am fat and guys have this thing about them that says no fat chicks allowed. Puh. I don’t know really. Besides, I don’t think I would be able to hang with him since he’s kind of freaky. Though I could get down for that kind of stuff I would still need some time to ‘adjust’ and such.

*sigh sigh sigh*

I guess that I shouldn’t say or think that I’m ugly but I just can’t help it as I am subject to the beating from society. Plenty of peope compliment my beauty, but I just think they are lying. I’ll post a picture of me and you can decide for yourself.

I am going to try and watch him (Alan) on tv when he he’s going to be on. He is going to be on the Wayne Brady show on the 18th of this month. I hope to the Goddess that I don’t miss it!! I neeeed to see him!! I posted an alert about it on the board. I am also going to post the appearance on the club calendar so people can get notices about the appearance and won’t miss it. I have to look out for my fellow Alan fans.

I also got my free issue of Seventeen yesterday and the new design sucks!!! I hate it and am not paying a dime for that ugly mag!! I’ll just subscribe to something else. Something worth looking at.

I am so glad that I got the Cabaret CD yesterday. I’ve been listening to it. I saw him on the Rosie show performing those songs way back when but again didn’t know who he was at the time. I just knew that I liked him. I am listening to Money right now.

Hmmmm…. yucky bile taste again. Yuck!!!

I also did some surfing for Jim Carrey. He is kind of cute and very funny. Love that humor.

~@~ Danielle ~@~