My Little Chat Part One and Work Update

This is a chat I had with one of my Alan board friends.

I hope that she doesn’t mind.

purpletwilight101: okay im back.. now.. lets see about this NightCrawler invironment

Danni: yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Danni: thank you love even though i’m still upset with you!!!

Danni:

purpletwilight101: What?!

purpletwilight101: M-me/! You’re upset with.. me? Whyyy?

purpletwilight101:

Danni: you know what you’ve done.

Danni: trying to force me to share you!!

Danni: trying to make me all jealous

purpletwilight101: Ok somethings wrong.

Danni: what?

purpletwilight101: I can’t look at the X2 things

purpletwilight101: and your message still keeps popping up

Danni: oh darn!!!

Danni: do you have the latest ver.?

purpletwilight101: maybe i need to upgrade ?

purpletwilight101: No

purpletwilight101: so now im downloading that..

purpletwilight101: So can i ask you a favore?

purpletwilight101: Could you take off your nightcrawler invironment just for a while so the message will stop popping up?

purpletwilight101: Just until i get the latest version on my side.

Danni: ok

purpletwilight101: i’d love to talk to you without the pop up window

Danni: is that better?

Danni: ok then

purpletwilight101: Try it again ” _

purpletwilight101: YES

purpletwilight101: Ooh waaay better

purpletwilight101: okay you’ve got my story in your mail box.

Danni: good

purpletwilight101: And okay.. .about Alans Book..

Danni: oh i saw it

Danni: yes!

Danni: hold on just one second

purpletwilight101: Yeah… And I think the ex girlfriend in the book is like.. his ex wife..

Danni: i need to finish the email to Nan

Danni: Woo!!!

purpletwilight101: Personally, I don’t think he ever got over her..

Danni: i wasn’t sure about whether he go over her either

purpletwilight101: I don’t think he ever did.. because if he had.. I think he would have been able to find someone by now and maybe really have serious thoughts of marriage and love..

purpletwilight101: I don’t think he got enough of that growing up.

purpletwilight101: So yeah.. he probably had to grow up too fast as a child .. and now that he can do what he wants.. he’s moving backwards.

purpletwilight101: It makes me kind of sad really.

Danni: yea i get that vibe too. i really like him and i think he’s sexy but i think he might too many issues to consider a LTR

Danni: *sigh*

Danni: and the worst part is that i see bits of me in Tommy

purpletwilight101: I see a lot of myself in tommy too..

purpletwilight101: I’ve been down that road.. and since I feel the same way about some sex issues… It does make it a little confusing and difficult to live in the shit hole world that we live in..

purpletwilight101: I think Alan is always trying to be someone else….

Danni: that’s true. and then i have all these crazy thoughts. some because i don’t have to deal the whole sex thing since i don’t have an active sex life and some because of other issues

purpletwilight101: No one really knows the real Alan behind closed doors. I also feel that there is probably a large amount of scares in his life that keep opening up at some points.

purpletwilight101: I haven’t been felt up in quite a while.. Im to the point now where ij ust want meaningless sex.. lol

purpletwilight101: but i haven’t had that yet.

Danni: i think that he’s always trying to be someone else too. i mean come on. the man talks with about a million different accents. some of his fans don’t even know what his real voice sounds like. Oh i’ve been there and then something comes along and meeses up my opportunity to have just sex sex. i don’t know. i know there’s something more that i should be doing but i’m so restrained in my little world that it’s choking me. I realized today on the way home from picking up my check that i wanted to travel and be free. i need open spaces. instead of swimming around in this little fishbowl that i call my ‘life’ *deep, deep sigh* The need for sex is there. Oh it’s there but the urge’s flow has no channel to go through because 1) I won’t allow it in real life due my issues with the male pop.

Danni: and 2) there isn’t anyone suitable. Do i sound crazy to you?

purpletwilight101: IM back

purpletwilight101: and nO

purpletwilight101: You don’t sound crazy!!

purpletwilight101: I feel the same way11

Danni:

purpletwilight101: I need a vacation from what i’ve been dealing with lately..

Danni: good then i’m not alone!

purpletwilight101: I talked to my father about taking a vacation.. and he was like “So where do you wanna go?”

purpletwilight101: and i told him..

purpletwilight101: London.

Danni: gosh if you feel this way you should read my online journal and then you’d see yourself in all my words.

purpletwilight101: And he said that that sounded like a great idea. Of course I have to pay for it myself.. but thats what working is for.

Danni: cool!!

purpletwilight101: So Im going to try and go in the fall with a group of people my own age. Get a travle package deal.

Danni: i want to go on vaca somewhere too

Danni: i hope that you enjoy the trip though

purpletwilight101: I’ve always wanted to go there.. maybe i’ll have meaningless sex with a fucking hot british guy.

Danni: LOl i hope that you do!!

purpletwilight101: well hey.. its just an idea so far.

purpletwilight101:

purpletwilight101: Oh Okay lets try this xmen thing real fast

Danni: well i mean it has go have your fun but don’t do yourself in

Danni: ok then

purpletwilight101: what the fuck?

purpletwilight101: I try to click on see all IMVironments..

purpletwilight101: and nothing happens.

Danni: ok i’ll try then’

purpletwilight101: okaY

Danni: did it come through?

purpletwilight101: Like.. Whoa!!

purpletwilight101: it just kicked me off Yahoo messenger

purpletwilight101: Okay it’s not working.

Danni: what did?

purpletwilight101: Fucking christ.

purpletwilight101: *sighs*

Danni: darn ok

purpletwilight101: Idunno…

purpletwilight101: >.<
purpletwilight101: anyway..

purpletwilight101: Okay… so yeah.. about his voice.

Danni: when you imed me it took my IMv off

purpletwilight101: I guess i still haven’t heard his real voice..

purpletwilight101: The one in the Anniversary Party sounds like it might be really close though.

purpletwilight101: LOL YAY there we go! its working now.

Danni: yea. it’s amazing when you hear it. i’ve always loved scottish men to begin with so when i found out that alan was a scot i was plesantly surprised

Danni: did you do that

purpletwilight101: weiird.

Danni: woo Hoo!!!!!!

Danni: ok go to characters

purpletwilight101: Well… I’ve missed it on the interviews on TV…

purpletwilight101: so is.. this is not the right one.

purpletwilight101: lol

purpletwilight101: ACK

purpletwilight101: you can’t read my writing.

Danni: ok did you get my email with the link to an alan interview where he’s using his own voice

Danni: just the blackparts

purpletwilight101: Yeah i got it.. but you said that it wasn’t working so i never tried it.

purpletwilight101: (( can you see all the changes? ))

Danni: yea but *sniffles*

purpletwilight101: what?

purpletwilight101: LOL

purpletwilight101: Okay okay

purpletwilight101: we’ll use this one.

purpletwilight101: What?

purpletwilight101: LOL

purpletwilight101: now it’s snowflakes?

Danni: hahahahaha

purpletwilight101: Girl.. im so sleepy..

Danni: i’m ok in that area

purpletwilight101: yay! Snow in May !

purpletwilight101 has selected the “Snowflake” IMVironment.

purpletwilight101: Gosh, it’s been so cool here in Dallas today.

Danni: so how far are you in the book?

Danni: yea girl!!! we need the snowflakes!!!

Danni: i like it

purpletwilight101: lol well, i got so busy this weekend that I’ve only been able to read a few chapters. I’m still in the beginning.. You’re more into the book than I am.. ;_;

Danni: cold??? he we’ve been burning up

purpletwilight101: I’m gonna read some tomorrow

purpletwilight101: for real?

Danni: good!! please do so

purpletwilight101: Yeah it’s like in the low 60s here today

purpletwilight101: Crazy Shit

Danni: i read my books in 1 and a half to three days

purpletwilight101: LOL

Danni: dang!!!

purpletwilight101: Oh god! I do that too sometimes .

Danni: it’sreally warm here

Danni: hehehehe

purpletwilight101: I did that with this book I bought a fwe weeks ago called Rainbow Boys.

Danni: what was it about?

purpletwilight101: Ooh it was so good.. It was about three teenage boys dealing with being gay.

purpletwilight101: I read it in one day.

purpletwilight101: 235 pages or something .. in one afternoon really.

Danni: oh i see. i kind of figured

purpletwilight101: lol

Danni: that’s a lot

purpletwilight101: yeah.. I loved it.. it made me cry.

Danni: awww…

purpletwilight101: Yeah.. I hardly ever read.. but when I do… God, you can’t get the book out of my hands until i’ve finished.

Danni: you it’s weird getting this inside view of the gay man’s world

purpletwilight101: and its so hard for me to find things i enjoy reading..

Danni: oh yea!!!

purpletwilight101: Really?

Danni: you know what i mean?

purpletwilight101: See my best friend is Gay so i hear about it all the time. and I’ev been digging gay boys since i was.. i dunno 14? 15?

purpletwilight101: I know a lot of Gay stuff.. and information..

Danni: yea i for me it is. i mean i’ve had gay friends and we’ve talked but not like tommy

purpletwilight101: and situations… and i have a lot of gay male friends So its no biggy to me anymore.

Danni: oh i LOVE gay men don’t get me wrong

purpletwilight101: Oh I didn’t think you didn’t

Danni: just love them to pieces but this book is different

Danni: hehehehee

Danni: well i guess cause we never really discussed the sex parts of the relationships

purpletwilight101: Like… Kinda sad different.

purpletwilight101: I think its like that because we love him so much.

Danni: yea i think so too and to think that he goes around just giving it away to who ever

Danni: when ever

purpletwilight101: Gay sex and love is different from Straight couples. . and i don’t just mean that in the fucking sence. Its really emotional.

Danni: where ever

Danni: yea i know what you mean

Danni: because you need more support because of society and all

purpletwilight101: And i think he gives it up so easily because… He is confused about his own sexuality.

purpletwilight101: I wish he could just be comfortable with who he was on the inside….

Danni: yea i think so too. i mean he is out and out bi.

purpletwilight101: Here we keep making him out to sound like he’s a basketcase..

purpletwilight101: he could very well be…. And thats okay. : ) Who isn’t?

Danni: you what is kinky but i still kind of liked. there’s going to be a part where he does things in public areas and it’s kind of a turn on

Danni: i’m not going to tell you what things because i want you to be surprised

purpletwilight101: YES…

Danni: hehehee i know that i am

purpletwilight101: I’ve made out in stores before..

Danni: we do make him sound crazy but he did that first

purpletwilight101: lol You’re right

purpletwilight101: Ooooo… Be surprised.. hehehee..

purpletwilight101: You know what though?

purpletwilight101: Some of those things he writes in the book could just be fantasies too though.

Danni: hmm i’ve done something like that just not making out. maybe a kiss. i’m more reserved about the way i show my affections

Danni: i never thought about that!

Danni: i just thought he was a freak trapped in a sweet choir boy’s body

purpletwilight101: Aww… well back in High School I was kinda wild … I’d flash all my friends.. boy or girl. Oh-wait.. I still do that..

purpletwilight101: But yeah i was kinda wild back then.. now im really reserved in relationships.

purpletwilight101: I keep it held back until we’re in his apartment or my bed.. or whatever.

Danni: i don’t flash people at all. i’m not all that wild. i don’t think i am

Danni: yea i need there to be a privatespace

purpletwilight101: lol I love my boobies..

purpletwilight101: and everyone seems to love them too.

Danni: hehehehe i just love boobies in general

Danni: i hate mine though

purpletwilight101: But .. Im still a virgin!

Danni: WHAT???

purpletwilight101: lol but i’ve done a whole lot of other shit.

Danni: really??

purpletwilight101: ^_^

purpletwilight101: Yeaaah..

purpletwilight101: Yes

purpletwilight101: Im waiting for the right guy for that one..

Danni: hehehehee i know what other stuff

Danni: oh i see

purpletwilight101: but oh my god… The other things i’ve done. O.O Im a crazy bitch.

Danni: no problems there

Danni: woo hoo i know what you mean!!!

Danni: you think to yourself what did i just do???

purpletwilight101: Its not like I don’t know how to suck cock . or Jerk someone off… or give them one hell of a tease..

purpletwilight101: Mwuahaha.

purpletwilight101: YES

purpletwilight101: and im like ” ew.. that was gross dude.”

purpletwilight101: lol

purpletwilight101: personally, I think cocks are very ugly to look at.

purpletwilight101: I have to really like the guy to like his dick.

purpletwilight101: and Alan.. i can see liking his dick just fine. LOL

purpletwilight101: Okay im really weird.

Danni: heheheehehe hey everyone has there thing

purpletwilight101: Oh i’ve got a lot of em.

Danni: i like some guy’s better than otheres

purpletwilight101: I love cross dressing men too. which is another reason why i like Alan so much.

Danni: heheheehe i do too!!

purpletwilight101: Yeah me too.

Danni: hehehe i meant about the little things that seem weird

Danni:

purpletwilight101: LOL oh.

purpletwilight101: well.. *looks around* : )

purpletwilight101: See.. alan should so date me.

purpletwilight101: lol

purpletwilight101: im just kidding.

purpletwilight101: : )

Danni: i don’t know how i feel about guys how dress in drag. it kind of cool, but then i have conservative roots so you know how that is. then my next thought is to help them do make up

Danni: LOL

purpletwilight101: Oh but hey! So you still want that copy of the Anniversary Party on VHS anyway?

Danni: hehehehe he really should that way i can live through you and if you’re feeling generous one night or just wasted i can have a crack at him

Danni: LOL

Danni: yea i do did you get my email address?

purpletwilight101: LOL Helping them buy clothes is really fun. I had a friend back in High School that always made me help him with clothes shopping… He stopped cross dressing about a year or so ago.. He said he just kinda grew out of it.

Danni: oh yea well that happens

purpletwilight101: Yes I did : )

Danni: i had friends who cross dressed

Danni: they were nice people too

purpletwilight101: Hopefully Josie and the Pussy Cats will come in the mail this week too so that way I can try and send out your package next week : )

Danni: i liked them a lot. i hated that no one understood them and i felt pressured to talk bad about them behind their backs

Danni: cool!!!!

purpletwilight101: I love that stuff… I don’t really know why.. I had a boyfriend that liked to wear one of my mini skirts for kicks behind closed doors.. that was some wild stuff right there..

purpletwilight101: He was so thin too he looked better in it than i did..

Danni: hehehehe i like to try and dress my bfs as a woman or paint their nails. that kind of thing

Danni: i get excited by putting make up on guys and such

Danni: gosh!!

purpletwilight101: LOL! I dated this gothic guy named Robert back in October and he always wore black finger nail polish.. god he was so fine.

purpletwilight101: LOL

purpletwilight101: wellll this has been very interesting I love talking to you Danielle. ^_^

purpletwilight101: BUt i’ve gotta go to bed..

Danni: GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am SO jealous!!!! i LOVE gothic guys!!!

Danni: ok then

purpletwilight101: ME TOO

Danni:

purpletwilight101: he was like the only gothic guy i dated.. and he lead me on!!!

purpletwilight101: I can tell you more about that later * sighs*

Danni:

purpletwilight101: He was so fucking hot..

purpletwilight101: and a great kisser..a nd he had a NICE PT Cruser too.

purpletwilight101: GOD…

purpletwilight101: *sighs*

Danni: i want to alk but you have to go and i know what that’s like

purpletwilight101: I just recently found out some information about him on Sunday..

purpletwilight101: I’ll tell you tomorrow.

purpletwilight101: I know

Danni: what??

purpletwilight101: Bed time.

Danni: ok then

purpletwilight101: I’ll tell you tomorrow.

Danni:

purpletwilight101: Okay.. Night night girly

Danni: good

purpletwilight101: Sweet dreams..

Danni: ditto

purpletwilight101: eat some peanut butter cups and think of Alan.

purpletwilight101:

Yahoo! Messenger: purpletwilight101 has logged out. (5/21/2003 1:01 AM)

I went to get my check today and Jackie was bitcy. Why wouldn’t she be. We have to talk.

Danielle