A Little Something To Catch Up

Well, I am finally getting a chance to write in my journal. It’s been a while.

I’m at Prestina’s house and I am going to show her how to set up an online journal. She says that if she can’t say the things that she wants to Damien she needs to write them down. See! Danielle can be a good influence on someone for once! Writing is very important!, especially when you need to write down your feelings that have no other outlet.

I haven’t heard back from the people in San Marcos. They are being extrememly flaky right now. I have started gathering the necessary papers to apply to Prestina’s school. I just hope to finish high school soon as everything seems a mess to me. I get so fustrated that it churns in my stomach making me sick. I get so stuck in a hole of despair that I don’t know where to begin. My academic career is at the mercy of people who don’t care and I am supposed to just sit here and wait. I am tired of waiting. I have been nice and patient for a very long time now. I am starting to think that it is divine intervention. I finally get an answer back and then I fall off the porch. Then I get a way to go, but it all falls through. All the while weird unexplained things keep trying to push me and Cris together even though on the surface we don’t mush well together. Then, I end up seriously considering going to school here in Houston instead of San Marcos. I don’t know if I just have terrible luck or something is trying to keep me here.

Everyone would keep saying that perhaps it is meant for me and Cris to be to together and that perhaps we will be married. Prestina even planted the thought that I love Cris and he loves me in my head. I almost slipped up and said it to him twice last week. Once on the phone and once in person on Friday.

This last Friday was our one month anniversary minus those four days that we were broken up of course. I did burst out and ask him who Jill was after Damien told me that she called him the day of Damien’s birthday party. He was like “What? Who?” and then he told me who she was. I really knocked him on his ass with that one.

Another thing, I need to stop cursing so much. I had pretty much stopped and then along came Cris. The boy curses so got darn much that it is nearly impossible for me to stop again. Everytime that I talk to him he says something that upsets me and I curse him out. It always fuck this, fuck that, fuck you Cris. God.

Anyway, things are pretty happy with me and Cris. I just need to figure out what to fix for him. I want to bake him something or cook a pinic meal, but I am not sure what he would like to eat. Maybe I can talk to my Mom about it.

Now about Tenz, I talked to him last Tuesday and he went on and on about how I should dump Cris “because he is the best fucker out here”. Whatever. He is creepy and yucky and ugly to me. I have never felt anything for him and never will. Cris is just cocky, Tenz is beyond that into Jerkville. Gah.

I guess this is enough for now.

I also want to say hi to everyone who has come by to read and/or Clixed me inlcuding Brandon and Jade. Hey guys!

Danielle

I am still here at Prestina’s waiting for my mom to come and pick me up. I could have had Prestina’s mom drop me off at home, but at Prestia’s urgng I stayed to help her continue setting up her journal. I didn’t mind of course, but I know that her mom wanted me gone long time ago so that everyone can go to bed. I hate knowing that I am holding thing up. That sickens me. I hate being a burden. A pest. *sighs*

Anyway, I saw Cris today. He even came by Prestina’s and hung out. Prestina’s friend, Jamarcus came over too. I had to stop him from giving me lap dances so I would not get in trouble with Cris. He didn’t seem to mind though, but I didn’t want to appear to be cheating on him in any way. Though, I wanted to. The boy was so cute! Skinny, but cute and had nice thick, soft looking lips.

Oops, I think my mom is here. Hmm. Ok, yea it’s her.

Danielle