(3:42 P.M. â 4:10 P.M. US Central/Sunday/Downtown library)
[imood mood at time of entry: tired]
I’m due at work to cover Judy’s shift in just over an hour. I swapped out with her when I saw last Friday who I’d be working with on the next weekâs schedule
. The last time I worked with that person, they helped trigger that anxietyattackwhatitwas on Friday the 13th. I couldn’t risk that happening again, so I bailed ASAP. That, and I just don’t like to work with him. He drives me absolutely crazy.
I haven’t really used the laptop since it freaked out on me. I looked into returning it, but Best Buy has such a crap return policy of only two weeks. Guh. I’m thinking of selling it and buying another one or using the money to buy a car, which I REALLY need. It really is about time that I saved up properly and bought myself a car so that I can get around the city and out of it when the desire to roam hits me.
And it does.
So hard that it suffocates me.
I canât live through other people forever. After all, it is my dream to travel and do something with myself and my life before I die.
I am also thinking about bribing someone to help me with the damned thing. To take a look at it and tell me exactly what software I need to buy to fix the damned thing.
All in all, this experience has actually been. . . freeing. I have been carrying around and protecting a heavy laptop for nearly three months straight. Now, Iâm back to no strings and the kinda fun of public computers. You know, apart from all of the germs that freak me out when I think about it or rub my face without thinking first. I definitely miss being about to eat and drink in the library when I use my own laptop. I guess that I might still be able to do so, but I wouldnât dare on the library computers. Iâve been trained too well by all of the computer teachers Iâve had over the years. Heh.
I did bring the laptop out to play today. I have the story idea buzzing in my head and I definitely think that it just might be the one that I will submit to the short story contest I want to enter. Iâve had other ideas, but I knew that they wouldnât be selected based on their dark nature. The idea that sprung up either yesterday or the day before isnât entirely âpolitically correct,â but itâs something. I canât really explain it without giving it away.
So, Iâm going to do that.
There is still work, which is to say that itâs kinda crap as usual. There were the usual fights among the hosting staff this weekend that led to the temporary host, Jarrod, to put in his two weeks and then go around telling everyone that I made him quit. Uhrm, okay.
He hasnât spent his summer fighting with me. Up until this past Friday, we were mostly fine. Weâve had talks about his need to dominate everything, but we hadnât had a big fight. At least, not yet, because we always have a big fight about something when he comes to visit. But whatever.
On a further writing note, I have been chiding myself about this for the longest, but I need to gather all of the scraps of paper I have written poems and story ideas and such on in one place. I try to keep up with them either in my bag or in my box, but there are quite a few of them. What Iâm really hoping to do is to find out just what I need to turn all of these damned poems into a book or something, because Iâve written so many of them while at work.
What else am I going to do while Iâm there when itâs boring and no one wants to come in and purchase a $12 cheeseburger?
All right, I have a few Internet type things that I need to catch up on, since I canât get online as often without my laptop and all of the days I work in a row. I think that I am going to do my Neopets money thing and head in to work. My Inbox is too scary to tackle all at once with only a few more minutes online.