Flat Broke

I found out exactly how broke we are earlier today. It turns out that my mom has not paid the rent in three months and we might get evicted. We tried to go pawn some stuff earlier, but now pawn shops require a receipt to pawn anything. So we had to leave as Mom does not know where the receipts are.

She says that the rent is over a thousand dollars and we just don’t have that kind of money. I gave her the money that I got from my check to help pay on this bounced check.

They also had to fire my Grandmother’s provider as she acts like a crazy woman and has no respect for anyone. She also did not do her job properly. They expected her to do some light housework. Very light in fact, and she did none of it. She just watched television.

Mom is still off from work and I am not working so that means there is no money coming into the house. We bought groceries with my check money, but I can already see that it will not be enough.

*deep, deep sigh*

We are flat broke and I don’t know what to do. I have not broken down yet as I am OK with being poor as I don’t need much. I just like to eat and have a place to stay.

She talked about selling the computer. I am trying to talk her out of this. I like this computer. I suppose that I don’t mind going to the library, but it’s not the same. Oh well. We will have to see what happens.

*sigh*

My friend Jade is worried about her baby. She is pregnant, but the doctor has told her that cord is wrapped around the baby’s throat. They say that it will not survive the birth. She has this great boyfriend that is standing by her. I hope to some day have someone like him in my life.

I was cute today. I wore my cutest shirt and had my hair up and not flying wild like usual. Boys, were taking note of me as I had the pretty princess thing going on. It was sweet! hehe

I bought this magazine called Stuff at a gas station. I don’t like the way it shows women as only sex objects and that they have to be extremely thin to be pretty. I am further pissed that Crispin would appear in said magazine, but I am a fan and the photograph did an excellent job at the photo shoot. They did ruin it by adding his dumb porn star girlfriend though. I just want to tear her head off! lol. Men and their porn stars. What the heck are the rest of us supposed to do if all the men in the world want thin skinny women who are porn stars? Diet like crazy to the point of sickness and learn embarrassing things in hopes of becoming the dynamo in bed that all mags say that we should be and try to please our men in every way? Oh wait, we already do tat. Is there no hope for the human race? I think not.

*rolls eyes toward the sky*

I really don’t believe that things like this can be fixed, but maybe they can be made better. I do think I have seen a ray of hope for humanity though.

I was listening to the morning shows here in Houston and got two very different perspectives on this new hunting “game” called Hunt Bambi or something like it that they have in Las Vega, which is such a surprise! The game is that these women wear no protective gear of any kind while being hunted down with guys with paint guns. They don’t even get goggles. The men pay 10,000 dollars+ to play and the women get paid 1,000 dollars to play. they get 2,500 dollars if they don’t get hit by any paint balls. Oh! and to add insult to injury (literally) this men fuck the girls after they are finished shooting at them.

One morning show earlier this week was just in love with the idea and wanted to round men up to go do it. Even though they also mentioned that one girl ran out in front of a Mack truck trying to get away from the men. And another that I heard this morning was disgusted with the idea and had some much respect for women that my heart grew all warm and fuzzy every second that I listened to them. These were all men on the radio shows by the way. So maybe there is hope for the crack pots that we call men.

Um, what else? If I think of anything else I will post it.

~Danielle~